Thanks for the advice.

I was in a really bad mood. He's really a great guy and I write lots of bad stuff here, but mostly it's passing.

Anyway thanks for the comments and advice and I"ll be more positive next time.

My DH wants to be broke forever.

He agrees to spending money($40 for him and $20 for me) and then spends twice as much (so far the month is not over yet). He needs to show me that he's in control and not me. And it's kind of tiring.

I don't want to be in control I want us to be in agreement and it's hard when he keeps breaking the agreement!!

He told me last night someday (in the next two years) he's going to come home with a 27" TV. I suggest we start saving for it at $25/month we could have it in a year. But he refuses. He claims there'll be no other spending money (despite the fact that he's spent $40 extra this month alone, actually $60 if you count the "advance" he took at the end of last month, but who's counting? Not me. LOL).

Fine if he wants to stay as his crappy job and never see me then fine he can do that. I want to get out of debt and go back to school full time and get a decent job that I like. Not one where I'm unfulfilled and work my ass off for a company that doesn't really care that much about me. That's not really true, my bosses have been really great to me when it comes to working with my schedule.

I'm just really bitchy and sad tonight. I wish I could make him understand better why I want to do the things I do with money.

Day off today and DD is sick so I'm thinking of skipping my parenting group. I really don't want to, it's the second to last week. But she is really not good and needs rest and cuddles. She's with the babies so the ladies are busy with them most of the time.

DH did spend that money and then another $20. GRR. We agreed to a certain amount of spending money each month and he refuses to stick to it. We have the money I just wish he would stick to the budget. I don't want to get into another argument with him about this. I just want to strangle him until he gets it! LOL just kidding.

I have yet to eat some breakfast yet so I guess I should do that and get dressed.

Can't figure out why my car payment has not gone out of the account yet. It was supposed to have gone out around midnight last night, but it's still there.

Also trying to figure out what the extra $17 payment that occured today. I think DH bought something at work, he wanted tylonol, but that can't be $20. I just have these control issues these days, especially when it comes to DH and money. Oh well, it'll be okay when the $700 payment is reversed. I should have called today. I'll call tomorow.

DD is pulling on me right now so I'll finish this later. All about shopping and stuff.

I paid the phone bill which was just under $74. I typed 7 and then went to check the actual amount. THen typed in 74. Except that it was 774 and I never looked. DH was not happy with me. *MUTTERS*

*BANGS HEAD ON WALL*

It'll be back in the next 3 weeks.

We saved some money on power last night. And gas. The power went out at 11 PM until 2 Am. IT was -42 C with the windchill(-37 without). And then I was an hour late for work. Since I wasn't waiting around for the power to come back on.

And ... I"m having a bad day. My vaccum died last night. Shorted out somewhere we'll get it fixed when it warms up. Until them my mom is lending me hers (2 year olds are MESSY eaters). I cannot find my proof of purchase. But i'm hoping the warranty date on the back of the vaccum is enough. Cross your fingers.

Second verse same as first can't get better can only get worse. I'm a pessimist today.

I get paid tonight jsut after midnight.

Either DH is busy at work he's mad at me. He seemed mad when he was getting ready and leaving for work. I dunno.

I had a epiphany. Not going to write it here it's rather personal.

There is a blizzard warning going on here. It's been snowing and blowing all day. Otherwise it's been warm here. -11 C. Much nicer than -23, but then you factor in the windchill and it's not any warmer.

I was only supposed to work 24 hours this week but a guy got fired, so I get an extra shift. 30 hours +6 hours of stat pay. YAY. This will be my biggest pay check so far, in 6.5 months of working.

I am going to talk DH into going ot buy some wood. He's so bored he's driving me mad. When he gets really bored he just goes and sleeps for half an hour. I feel like I'm not interesting. :P

ANyway, it's bath time. Just watching the end of jeopardy. I wanna see if the woman wins and remains champ